Hi, I'm Lily and yes, I am Lexi's twin sister that she talked about in her blog. And before you all hate me, or anything like that (even if i *do* deserve it) I just want to let all of you know that I *do* believe I've changed a lot since all of that in the last couple months since me and Lexi reached more of a common basis. I can't regret what I did with Matt...well, I regret doing it with *matt* but it gave me two of the best things in my entire life, Sasha and Annabelle and there's no way I could ever regret having them. I *do* regret just how much I ruined Lexi's life and wish that I could go back in time and change it all. It wasn't always like that. IT was only in the past few years that we hadn't gotten along well since we obviously had different ideas of what morals were good (mine being highly off).

Ray-Ray (my nickname for Lexi) was the best friend and sister anyone could ever have and was *always* there for me even when she was mad at me. Even when she was so sick of me, she could always stay to listen one more time just to see if I've changed and I wish she could have stayed around so much longer because she deserved to live a very long, happy life after her messed up childhood mostly due to my lack of...i don't know...lack of *everything*. I miss her more than anything else in the world and wish she was here to see Annie and Sasha and it will be my first Christmas without her sitting right next to me opening presents, and singing carols and I"m not sure if I could bear it but I know she's up in heaven smiling down knowing how much she impacted people's lives all around the world.

The twins, who were born prematurely on November 15th are doing quite strongly right now even though Annie suffers from not having a fully developed lung at times. Their full names are Annabelle Ray Milani and Sasha Alexa Milani both middle names being after Ray-Ray.


^^That's Sasha and Annabelle. Sash is on the left, Annie's on the right.


^^Annie shortly after being let out of the ICU


^^Sasha looking very very angelic. lol


^^Sasha not looking too angelic and me being woken up at two in the morning...

Just thought you guys might want to see some pictures and I would also like to say that I understand that not all of you will be able to like me after all I did to Lexi but please just give me a chance.

Lily

They're still too cute, Lily. xD

And you have changed. A lot of us have seen it. It's okay. ^^

omg, Lily, they are adorable!!! *melts*

And you shouldn't worry about your past. If you've changed or are changing then you should just keep looking ahead and anyone who can't look past what you have done and look to what you're doing now should try to put themselves in your shoes more. I'm sure no one hates you and if you did change from however you were, I'm sure everyone will be able to tell. So do'nt worry and keep holding your head high! :]

~Kate

Well said Kate :]

You really have changed Lily. And give Sash and Annie and sqeeze from me!

~Kit Kat

They. Are. Adorable.

Congratulations on the twins, Lily!

I agree.
The twins are adorable.
Don't let anyone get on your nervs because of what you did before you came here.

They're so cute Lilly!! Congrats! I'm sorry about Alexa.

Thanks everyone


And I'm sorry too I keep thinking she'll walk through the front door just like always but she never does.

Lost one of my best friends of all time the other day. I only knew him through online IMs and stuff but we got really close and he was really really close with Lexi and he decided that I wasnt' real and that I was really some sick rapist or something who was making everything up. I do'nt get how you can tell someone one day you'll always be there for them and the next be calling them a fake. And not only is that insulting to me, but it's also insulting to Lexi I think cause if I was a fake then that would make her a fake too. So I blocked him, he blocked me and I'm not regretting being friends with him because he once made me smile and laugh but not anymore

Other than that, things have been going pretty well. Sash and Annie are both doing really well and are ADORABLE. Gave them a squeeze for y'all xDD It's gonna be their first Christmas soon and I'm sooo excited!

Lots of love!
Lils

Can't believe that guy said that. That really IS insulting.

that is awful. i know if someone did that to me well i wouldnt just be upset i would cry extremely much. im so sorry

love you lils!!! xoxoxoxoox! oh, and haha, model baby, hehehe, talk to you later my lovieee -hands chocolate-

Congrads, Lily. They're adorable!
I hope your Christmas turns out okay.
I miss Alexa so much...

I totally forgive you. You have changed so much.

I'm sorry. *hugs*

OMGosh! they so adorable!!!! Congrats and I hope you have a good Christmas with them!!

*gets out paper and pen!* So much to report on!

First of all, thanks to all of you for your support! *feels warm and fuzzy inside* and Harley, you still don't get either one of them but I'll put more pics up for you to look at soon!

Okay, nothing to report on the guy situation cause I'm done with him but tons to report on the twins!

They are still very healthy and just had their first Christmas! It was so cute! We had got them stockings and in the morning, when we were opening presents it was hilarious, because they had no idea what was going on but were soaking up all the attention. They got lots of cute little fuzzy socks and hats. They are adorable in them! We also got a whole bunch of baby gifts from neighbors and friends which they enjoyed a lot.

Unfortunatley, my dad and Matt's dad have come to a conclustion on visitation rights and he can visit once a month if he wants to so we're expecting him in two weeks *shudders*. Let us hope he doens't come once a month....

A very Happy New Years (thank God 2008 is over) and cheers for me having fallen asleep at 11:30 and having my dad wake me up at 11:59. And still being exhausted after Annie woke me up at 4:00 in the morning. Only to be expected. I am a huge fan of taking naps now!

It's my birthday today! YAY! The sucky this about being born on New Years Day is everyone is sleeping on your birthday...always....but oh well, lots of partying tonight.

An early birthday to Lexi who I'm gonna miss so much this year (her birthday's tomorrow and to clear any confusion I was born at 11:52 and Lexi was born at 12:20 the next day). I won't be able to rub in the fact that I open presents a day earlier than her or fight over who gets what type of cake. Happy 15th Lexi. We all miss you so so so much but I know plans are being set in heaven for ya! Love you sooo much! The kids are gonna hear great stories about you!

Okay, more pics coming soon! Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to all!